Thursday, September 18, 2014

the genius and sadness of Robin Williams

You're only given a little spark of madness.
You mustn't lose it.
- Robin Williams
When I first heard
of Robin Williams’ death,
my first thought was:

can’t be.

I’ve always loved Robin Williams.
His genius was palpable.
People like Robin
are few & far between.
When someone like this dies
and so many people feel the ripple of sadness,
you just know the world lost
an important person.

A few things stayed with me
when I heard of his death,
but in particular, a comment I heard
by his good friend, the famous David Letterman,
where he said this about his lifelong friend:
I’m sorry, like everybody else,
I had no idea that the man was in pain,
that the man was suffering.
That’s it, isn’t it?
That’s the point for someone who is battling 
serious depression.
Not letting it show.
Not wanting others to know.
Not letting the world see the sadness.
The darkness is too much for them to bear
so why would they want to share it?

If David Letterman, who was a true friend
and had been for so many years didn’t see it,
how could anyone else see it?
With depression,
it’s not about how many friends you have,
or how many people love you,
it’s about how you feel inside.
Robin Williams was loved by millions.
He had countless, profound friendships
and relationships
with people all over the world.
And yet…
he felt alone.
I am nowhere near understanding depression,
but I still believe there are many people out there
who are using depression (or mental illness)
as an excuse to get attention
or sympathy,
or a week off work.
A disgrace to those who struggle with the real thing,
day in, day out.
Like Robin did.
It makes me sad to know
that so many out there reach the point
of no return.
I am sad that Robin saw this
as his only way out.
Sad that he got so good
at hiding it from the world.
Sad that the world lost so much
when he decided
to leave…

Monday, September 15, 2014

Did I miss the memo?

Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.
- Leonardo Da Vinci

I want to live in this house.
Or the one below.
Huge homes don't impress me.
We moved around a lot when I was younger.
My dad was a builder, 
so he'd build - and we'd live in it for a while,
and then he'd sell.
And then he'd build again - bigger,
and we'd live in it for a while,
and then he'd sell again.

The size of a home is so not important to me.
Actually, it is important, in the sense that
I much prefer a smaller home than a big one.

If I won a million dollars,
I would still want to live in a small home.

I think we're so swayed by our surroundings.
Since when are these considered shoes?
Not too far off from Chinese foot binding, if you ask me.
...and since when are these the only legitimate purses
on the planet?

or these bracelets the only jewelry worthy of being worn?

No offense to Pandora bracelet lovers
but i'm not one of them.
I'm not a fan of anything that smells like a fad.

ok, so when I see this face,
I see peace.
Not so with this face...
Sorry Donald, but you're not on my 'favs' list.
I'm weary of anyone who loves money
as much as this guy does.
There really is something to be said
for meditation.
I'm also becoming weary
of many athletes lately -
in particular, NFL players.
Charges of child abuse and spousal abuse
and drug addictions
and violence here & violence there.
Why do we still have these idiots on pedestals?
Wealth or being able to throw a damn ball
shouldn't give anyone such privileges.
But it does, clearly
and it makes me mad and sad and frustrated
that we haven't evolved more.
ok, now that i got that off my chest -
on to more inspiring things!
 acrylic paint on paper
I didn't like this one at all
while I was doing it
adding the dots and a few lines here & there
made it a bit better in the end. 
Still not great. 
But even when i'm painting something I don't like,
it's still time well spent.
It's kind of a meditation, isn't it?
 You know what i'm talking about, right?
 My 1st acrylic painting on wood!
Bought these cute little 4" x 4" wood panels
and i just LOVED the feel of painting on this.
Do any of you out there paint on wood?
I think I may be painting on wood a lot more.
The finished piece,
taken in natural light the next morning. 
a boy and his marbles.
And this fabulous collage by
a new artist i just discovered, 
OMG... love his stuff.
David Fullarton. Check him out.
I feel like this guy today.
Happy week everyone!

Monday, September 8, 2014

Harvest Moon

Yours is the light by which my spirit's born:
you are my sun, my moon, and all my stars.
- e.e. cummings
In honour of tonight's harvest moon...
 A bit of art from the weekend

As I was posting these,
I noticed the heart shape
at the bottom left side of the page.
While I was painting it,
I never saw it.
Even here (below), where I outlined 
the heart in black paint...
I never saw it
while I was painting it.
(otherwise, I probably would have followed
a path of hearts for the painting!)
Isn't that strange?
Something that can be so obvious to me now,
but so NOT obvious at the time.
It's funny how sometimes,
things can be right in front of our eyes -
but we don't see it.
What I'm currently reading (again).
I read some books more than once 
and usually get something different
out of them every time.
Depends how I feel and
what I'm open to hearing.
Or seeing.
I love this poster by Lisa Congdon
as much as I love the wise words by Anaïs Nin.
I think we all need to hear this now and then.

And to finish off the evening in style -
a little song called Harvest Moon.
oh, and for the record,
it's so nice to be back here with you all.
I am so behind on reading other blogs,
but i'm getting there.
So many of you are doing such beautiful things...
Leaves me speechless.